grief

A Poem to my Rapist

His name came up
 with a message
 full of little smileys 
and those dumb emojis 
Vile mouth coos it must be fate
 Last year he apologized
 For what? For not calling
 If my body wasn’t shivering so much in this hot weather, I would have screamed until my throat tore apart 
What a nice scenario, if only 
 But my… Read more →

Dealing with the “G” word.

I’ve spent the last 8 months trying to understand grief, trying to understand and wrap my head around what death is, and trying to move on. Trying to understand the hush hush world of the “G” word that people avoid. My father died very unexpectedly, on the night before my parents were to hop on a plane to start a… Read more →

Lets Be Honest.

Lets be honest, I am not doing as well as I wish I was. Losing my dad was like losing half my heart. Losing my dad was like losing my reasons to keep going. I relived his death last night in a dream, and I woke up crying, I woke up missing him so much. Lets be honest, I will… Read more →

I miss you, but I’ll be okay.

When you lose someone precious, you start to find a lot of comfort in nature. You spend excessive amounts of time looking at the sky, you notice the butterflies and the birds, you really feel each breeze. Maybe because we all hope that the person we lost may not be in the same form anymore, but that they’re now a… Read more →